I really cant stop thinking about you, I cant keep you out of my head, You show up in my thoughts at least once an hour.
Its been only three hours that I said goodbye and I already miss you, I want you. I know I might lose most of that interest as soon as you reply, but still I like you, telling me "I love you" makes me feel all warm and soft, makes me want to hug and cuddle you and take a nap together. Love boners, I get them each time you do cute things be it calling me "love" or simply sending voice messages, with your little brother making hell lots of noises in the background , fighting you, pulling your hair and scratching you, spoiled little monkey. FIGHT HIM!!!! he is only 9yo, and you're a 20yo big girl! use your strength and overwhelm him, end this tyranny for once and for all!
I love talking to you, exchanging thoughts with you, be it small talk or deep conversations idk tbh I just love hearing you. I love teasing you, but I dont quite like being teased, I get so jealous when you mention other guys, or when you jokingly say "I will dump you for him" even though I myself do it more often than you do.
That is indeed needy from me, although I might not express all of the above when Im being with you. I hope this is love, Ive always been a little distant from expressing myself fully with you, maybe because I wanted to protect myself from being heartbroken, or you from feeling neglected if I ever start losing interest.
jeudi 7 mai 2020
mercredi 6 mai 2020
Dream
1st part:
My cousin had called me to tell me something, there were 4 dead rats in the house and I had to dispose of their carcasses. Three were in the terrace, I quickly got rid of them without any problem, one was in the basement, a HUGE one probably as big as a cat. My father was already taking care of him as I walked in, he then teasingly threw the rodden at my face, trying to avoid getting hit I jumped and accidentally pushed my father causing him to fall and hit the back of his head on a weird bump on the wall. He was unconcious and bleeding, I didnt know what to do so I started crying. A moment later, he wakes up, as if nothing happened to him, then told "the rat was half dead half alive"....
2nd part:
I was in our house, apparently I had a fight with my mother, so I went outside. After doing something that I dont rememeber (shoud have started writing as soon as I woke up) I saw a guy that I knew in real life, I hated him for no reason. He happened to be messing with our TV parabola, I walked up to him, took off my glasses, put them on our neighbor's car roof and started punching and kicking the guy with all my might, I made sure he suffered, I then pushed him over the edge he fell on the parking lot's asphalt ground. He didnt move a bit, then he shapeshifted into a rat and blood started comming out of him like in GTA. I felt really sad and wanted to cry, mom opened the door, looks at me in disgust and says "You regret doing that, dont you?".
1st part:
My cousin had called me to tell me something, there were 4 dead rats in the house and I had to dispose of their carcasses. Three were in the terrace, I quickly got rid of them without any problem, one was in the basement, a HUGE one probably as big as a cat. My father was already taking care of him as I walked in, he then teasingly threw the rodden at my face, trying to avoid getting hit I jumped and accidentally pushed my father causing him to fall and hit the back of his head on a weird bump on the wall. He was unconcious and bleeding, I didnt know what to do so I started crying. A moment later, he wakes up, as if nothing happened to him, then told "the rat was half dead half alive"....
2nd part:
I was in our house, apparently I had a fight with my mother, so I went outside. After doing something that I dont rememeber (shoud have started writing as soon as I woke up) I saw a guy that I knew in real life, I hated him for no reason. He happened to be messing with our TV parabola, I walked up to him, took off my glasses, put them on our neighbor's car roof and started punching and kicking the guy with all my might, I made sure he suffered, I then pushed him over the edge he fell on the parking lot's asphalt ground. He didnt move a bit, then he shapeshifted into a rat and blood started comming out of him like in GTA. I felt really sad and wanted to cry, mom opened the door, looks at me in disgust and says "You regret doing that, dont you?".
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